¹² Now I want you to know, brothers and sisters,^[b] that what has happened to me has actually served to advance the gospel.¹³ As a result, it has become clear throughout the whole palace guard^[c] and to everyone else that I am in chains for Christ. ¹⁴And because of my chains, most of the brothers and sisters have become confident in the Lord and dare all the more to proclaim the gospel without fear.

Distractions, BEGONE in JESUS MIGHTY NAME

I'm thankful for I begin to see the dimensions the way Daniel or Ezekiel see things. The understanding is not enough, but in order to get to the point of realization understanding is essential as a process of 'cooking' and so I digest by realizing.

I was so hungry for the reality of God that I read the entire book of Daniel to get the context of the message God was putting into my Spirit. He also lead me to read Modecai as a prominent man in the Babylonian kingdom.

As it says in 2 Timothy 2:

3 Join with me in suffering, like a good soldier of Christ Jesus. 4 No one serving as a soldier gets entangled in civilian affairs, but rather tries to please his commanding officer. 5 Similarly, anyone who competes as an athlete does not receive the victor’s crown except by competing according to the rules.

Distractions are just a tiny discomfort; a splinter or a mosquito that'll divert our attention from our focus in achieving our goals and destiny in life. Perhaps these detours will take us somewhere, within the understanding of humanity, a legitimate reason to have or to pursue...1 can live under the common grace and the sun still shines, the rain still pour, the waves still beats the shore.......but for 1 to be accurate and sensitive to the Spirit's prompting he or she cannot give in to the flesh and please the nature of Adam but to be transformed in the renewing of the mind in Christ.

Jesus ate with republicans and was found with other 'not so holy' people in the market place, but he did not associate himself with them. It is the sick who needs the doctors. If we who are called to be disciples of Christ do not come in contact with these 'lost' souls, how are they gonna know salvation? Live as though your conscience are clear with God and men.

As for now, the life of the apostles are the only examples we can imitate in living fully for God. Always giving our lives fully in the work of the Lord for we know our labor in the Lord is not in vain. Work out our salvation in trembling and fear, live as it is the last day of our lives. Live by faith and not by sight.

LAst Post for the year

In your anger do not sin. These are the words that are repeating over and over like a worn out recording. it's the voice of my conscience.

Heart is burning.

Nerves are tense.

Smells like ammonia in my nostrils.

And bitter syrup in my throat.

No air in some of my alveolus, chest compressed.

Suppressing the bitterness.

Last Tuesday was unlike other days ever since my employment with this company.

Many say life starts at 30. I agree, as I look back at the years spent in youth was to lay the foundations for what lies ahead. If the foundations were flimsy and not rooted on unshakeable grounds, the chances are that my future would be gloomy. But praise be to God, my foundation is nothing else but Christ, the Rock of all ages. Even if those years in youth were spent in pleasure and odd jobs and much exploration, I believe they're but parts of the bigger picture and ingredients for God's plan in my life.

Looking back to evaluate how I spent my life without Christ were also part of God's plan. If I did not walk that path, I would not have known much about the dark side and the way the prince of this world operates in the spiritual realm. Thanks be to God, by grace through faith Christ made known Himself to me, I am able to discern now. There was no one who can save me, not myself, not my intelligence, not my qualifications, no not even the wealth of the world, but only someone so big that is in control of every situation, someone who is able to rebuke the storm, someone who is tempted in every way yet was without sin, someone who did not despise the adulterous women, someone who welcomed a convict into paradise. That someone is not just anyone. He is really someone. My Jesus, who keeps saving me even now and until the day I die.

To acknowledge a Supreme Being above me, life is more simple and less complicated. When I believe someone created me, I fell more secure when I know I can rely on someone who knows me better than myself, who knows the universe at His fingertips. The best part is, when I pray to Him, he answers my prayer. That marks the difference between religion and a relationship with God. Many wonder how can man have a relationship with God? People just can't comprehend the simplicity of Jesus dying on the cross to reconnect man with God. This is true because as I read a part of the Bible that says something like this: The prince of this world (aka Satan) has blinded them from this truth.

Many of my peers are starting to have their own family, some have successful story to tell, some have businesses that can last for a few generations, some have been to most part of the world and many more. When I look at myself, there was nothing much. Not much achievements, not much gains. But thankfully, I have a certain bright future ahead of me. Heaven. No eyes have seen, no ears have heard. I heard that heaven is far beyond the best things this world has to offer. Multibillionaire? mulitply by infinity, that's heaven. Driving a Ferrari? multiply by infinity, that's heaven. Holiday in Mauritius? multiply by infinity, that's heaven. The joy of having a baby? multiply by infinity, that's heaven.

I heard that Heaven is so true that God would grieve so badly if we end up in hell. Not that he created hell, but His absence is hell. I find this true every Sunday when Christians congregate to worship God, and the presence of God drives out everything negative...sickness, depression, worry, fear,..etc.

I need something. I don't want to be in this state of mediocrity. This is not helping. This is getting me no where.